Later that night, I realized that the reason why that article appealed to me like hotcake was because I thought I was also experiencing what she was going through... :P
There is a guy who... uhm, well, okay. I have a guy friend who is really the perfect definition of a Mr. Nice Guy. He doesn't talk much and he don't just listen, he pays attention. We became good friends and I earned his trust despite his being mysteriously self-contained. He started to self-disclose and so did I. We became really close that one would even think that we are boyfriends/girlfriends. There was no malice in our relationship THEN; purely friends.
I said then because I now think that "something" must have been prevailing during those times.
Many times have I caught him staring at me (sometimes, he would look away immediately or sometimes just stare.). There are many small details about me that he surely remembers. He gets really mad when I'm hurt. He is sensitive to my feelings. He fell into an awkward silence when I talk with a guy in the phone.. more awkward when I flatter him. He would tell the people about my good characteristics when honestly, I am truly mean when we are together... he always boost my confidence telling me "ikaw pa?" He is like a balm that soothes my pain specially when he tells me "i'ts okay. all is well" I thought he treats all his girl friends the way he treats me. I was wrong. I should have noticed it then.
I don't know what happened. We just seemed to keep a distance from each other. There is now an awkward feeling every time we are alone together. We can not look each other's eyes. We can no longer talk alone like the old times. It's like, we are both holding back. We are both confused maybe.
But, even so, I know that the memories we made will always be in our heads. There would always be notes that would remind us of our song.. and maybe, just maybe, we could sing it again together someday. :)
estoryahee!!!
